Been a LOOooooOONNGG 6 Years.. seriously.
I thought this could be something to get things going again.. but perhaps I’m just too bored. I loved writing but I’ve never really taken it seriously. It’s gonna be a lil bit rusty but here goes nothing.
The weather's pretty bad outside and I'm stuck here on this work barge with practically nothing to do. Offshore bad weather, WOW (waiting on weather) we call it.. with heavy downpours, big waves slamming the barge deck, strong wind blah.. blah.. blah.. before we can all get back to our routines. Well there’s nothing unusual about it, it’s just part and parcel of offshore life. Phone line’s down, paperwork's all done, studied a lil for my assessment next week and there’s just about nothing else to do now. Still A year to go before this is all over.
As I gazed out through the little window to the rough sea, just next to my desk, I began to think about what I have done wrong, the people that I’ve hurt and the sins that I’ve committed in the past. Will they and most importantly god ever forgive me? And here I am devoting my time and energy to work.. *sigh*
I started reflecting upon moments of my life. I get heated easily over things that I couldn’t change and for the things that I couldn’t get them to be the way I wanted them to be back then. The anger was so immense and the tense was volcanic at the time. Frustrated and upset I was. I wished I could have done more but I should have been more mature about all the things around me and respectful towards the people that I’ve met along the way. Like I said it’s been over 6 years now and interestingly enough, a lot of things have changed over time. A part of me is still that young raging juvenile and the other eagerly wanting to grow up. All this while I’ve wanted to make a difference, make a change in life, make something out of myself and ultimately make the right decisions. Then it struck my mind, maybe what I’ve gone through is something that was meant to be and how it’s supposed to be and all of it was never a mistake. Learning and making mistakes are parts of life too. We are all just human beings. Life has taken me through ups and downs, for me to have experienced the worst had made a stronger person though it’s still far ahead to be saying that.
I finally realized that I’m in a different environment now. So what’s really important in life? People don’t really care about what you have and what you don’t have. People won’t remember you for the money you had or how you looked. In the end, when your time here is over, people will only remember how you spent quality time with them and how you make them smile, laugh and feel special. Hey.. I’m a different person now.. a better person I guess. My work here? That’s part of my life too.. I turned out okay after all. I’ve got a decent job, people who care for me and love me for who I am. That’s good enough for me to achieve the best deals in life.
I just wanted to take this opportunity to ask for forgiveness from the people that our paths have crossed before.. for the mistakes, confusions, misunderstandings, differences and misjudgments..intentionally or unintentionally.. I'm truly sorry. It’s not that I’m emotional about it or anything like that.. it’s just that I feel that it’s the right thing to do. At least it'll help me clear my mind and get my inner peace. We sometimes need to stop clinging to our grievance and grudges and learn to forgive others. I hope the expression "Forgive and forget" is still valid.
4 days to go.. can’t wait to get back to my crown jewels.
Positive thinking is the way to go people and don’t ever take things for granted. You’ve only got one chance in your lives and don’t waste that opportunity. Live life to the fullest and cherish every moments in your life! Stay happy..
